Okay so it has been over a month since my last post, but sometimes life has a way of just taking over everything. Please forgive my lackadaisical nature.
Lately life has given way to a new birth, much like the bursting buds of this new spring season, so has my life seemed to move in a different or new direction. The problem arises that when too many things happen all at the same time it is hard to compose your thoughts. The insanity of life can sometimes make you want to crawl and hide, but the best would be to actually turn the world off for a few days to figure things out completely. Since that is not available, distractions are always a means around this type of predicament. Reading and other means of escape provide an outlet for frenzied thoughts and crazy life situations and emotional turmoil. Meditation is also good as well as a great deal of sleep. Having spent a week or two just continuing along the humdrum of everyday life trying to find some sense of myself in the turmoil of emotional sadness, I found it hard to allow myself to find these means of relaxation and actually have them work to take away some of the anxiety. It also felt like I was no longer myself. I didn’t remember the last time I had a really good laugh, which always makes me feel refreshed.
As time goes by, you actually find your familiar self returning slowly, but definitely returning. In thinking about the events since the beginning of April, things have been like an emotional roller coaster with trying to overcome a very emotional loss and a drastic, but very good life change. Finally now at the end of the month, it seems life is returning to normal somewhat. Things are definitely still out of control, but I feel them also bringing a new sense of familiarity and welcome knowledge that I can deal with the many things life tends to throw at you. As with the spring, I am beginning anew and finding I can handle what comes my way.
I’m looking forward to what the future holds, but I will never forget what has come before in my life. My past will always be there as a foundation and strength for my future endeavors and life experiences.
